cheerful. friendly. i'm the nice one.

though you'd never know it looking over my last few posts. really -- I'm usually a relatively happy person. and I *am* the nice one. I think I'm going to do a little work on what makes me happy -- and let it show a little more.

sappy mcsapperton.

grumble grumble

::sigh::

I'm working 70-some-odd hours a week, my dogs feel neglected, I absolutely have to do laundry before I go to SF, I'm feeling pushed aside by G#1 though I don't know why... her behavior isn't pushing-asiding, so maybe I'm just being overly sensitive and demanding and needy.

grumble grumble.

and the fucking stupid fuckhead fuck

...is being inaugurated today. Can I crawl into a hole and die now? or at least take a mental health day? grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

death to the fascist insects

and here my troubles began:

stupid coworker bought 'breakfast' with company money for everyone but me.
'breakfast' = smoked fried pig muscle... my desk now reeks of bacon.

stupid biostatistician can't open a spreadsheet without corrupting it... so I have to send him a hard copy and our computers are vintage 1986.

stupid corporate doesn't think we need admin staff, so I get to be receptionist, recruiting, and regulatory.

lovable, overworked, type A mom is taking advantage of me...
no benefits, no holidays, temp status, doing 3 jobs for $10 an hour cuz I love my mom.

love cream

so we have a monitor here for our love cream study and I can't stop flirting with her.... but she seems to be flirting right back.

Wonder Drug Tablets

(I changed the actual drug name to Wonder Drug, and the drug company name is similarly altered, but other than that this is the exact text of a MedWatch Report that arrived in my email this morning. What a wacky field I'm in.)
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...What are the possible or reasonably likely side effects of Wonder Drug Tablets?

Wonder Drug Tablets can cause serious side effects that lead to death including
lung damage, liver damage, and worse heartbeat problems.

Some other serious side effects of Wonder Drug Tablets include:

• vision problems that may lead to permanent blindness. You should have regular
eye exams before and during treatment with Wonder Drug Tablets. Call your doctor
if you have blurred vision, see halos, or your eyes become sensitive to light.

• nerve problems. Wonder Drug Tablets can cause a feeling of “pins and needles” or
numbness in the hands, legs, or feet, muscle weakness, uncontrolled movements,
poor coordination, and trouble walking.

• thyroid problems. Wonder Drug Tablets can cause hypothyroidism or hyperthyroidism.
Your doctor may arrange regular blood tests to check your thyroid function
during treatment with Wonder Drug. Call your doctor if you have weight loss or weight
gain, restlessness, weakness, heat or cold intolerance, hair thinning, sweating,
changes in your menses, or swelling of your neck (goiter).

• skin problems. Wonder Drug Tablets can cause your skin to be more sensitive to the
sun or to turn a bluish-gray color. In most patients, skin color slowly returns to normal
after stopping Wonder Drug Tablets. In some patients, skin color does not return
to normal.

Other side effects of Wonder Drug Tablets include nausea, vomiting, constipation, and
loss of appetite.

Rx only
Manufactured for
Big Pharmaceuticals Inc.
Anytown, Rust Belt, USA
by Obscure Biotech Company

translation:
“You’ll go blind, your hair will fall out, you’ll start twitching uncontrollably, and you’ll turn blue; but it’s covered by most major insurance plans and boy, is it a blockbuster!”

dirty deeds done dirt cheap

been a long time, eh? the new house is now officially christened... by GNO of all people... they're coming to hook up my phone right now, and I'm on my way to be oriented to the intricacies of philosophy tutoring for the brain-injured.

I've been chewed on and roughed up and I'm strangely perfectly fine with it (so far).

we'll see if it takes another 90 days to hear back.